Hey guys wow I have not wrote in such a freak'n long time! Well yeah update on everythign! I graduated last sunday! It was awesome! i am sooooo happy that it's done and over with! I've been working soo freak'n much so i have not gotten a chnace to do much talking with my friends which has sucked big time! Plus trying to get all graduation stuff for my party ready i've had no time!!!! But yeah today was my graduation party! Tthere was a lot of people that cameand I want to thank all of you who came! And for thsoe of u who did not come I just wanna say that I wish u would have came!  I got a ton of money! Over a $1,000 and that's not including the money i've gotten that i've alredy spent and the money my parents will be giving me and the money my grandparents will be giving me! It was soooo awesome! I was soooo excited!!! The weather was great besides the fact that it was humid but other than that it was great!!! Now to the stuff that has been bothering me and has been on my mind! I may tell everyone that I love this whole being single thing but I don't! i mean yes parts of it is nice but I really miss havng a boyfriend! But I'm done with these stupid watse of my time boyfriends who I think things are going to go sooo great with them and think that this is going to last and then they end up breaking my freaking heart! i'm done with that! I want a relationship that I could possibly marry the guy!  i want a guy who is going to treat me with respect! i want a guy who is into the things that 'm into a guy who isn't into doing drugs or drinking! i want a guy who is not going to play mind games and mess with my emotions! I want a guy who will understand that I am going to ahave a hard time atfirst because of past relationships have made me real leary about getting close wth anyone anymore! I've gotten to the point where I don't even call people anymore because i'm so afraid that I'm going to get annoying to them or that they really don't want to talk to me! Idk i just wish that i could just wipe out all those past relationships out of my mind and just start new! but in all seriousness I'm just ready to find that certain someone! That someone who is looking for the samething i am! Idk but I'm tired! I got this one like poem or something like that and it described almost perfectly of the kindof of guy i'm looking for! here it is!

I want a boy- - -
who can wrestle with me
and let me win.
who i can talk to about anything
who laughs at my jokes.
a boy who puts my cold hands
in his warm hoodie pockets.
who lets me use his sweatshirt
for a pillow.
who buys me 25 cent rings,
and sticky hands.
who says i love you & means it.
who will kiss me in the rain,
in the sunshine, and in the snow.
whos calls unexpectedly.
who will have many inside jokes
with and me remember each one.
a boy who notices girls haircuts.
whos realizes that girls say things
but dont always mean them.
who shows up at my games,
slipping in the door.
who i can go swimming with
on hot days.
who can tell me his problems
and let me help.
who will listen to me talk--
about the new nail polish i got.
who will bring me seashells
from the beach.
who will let me beat him up
when i get angry.
who writes love letters to me,
but doesnt send them.
who draws pictures and slips them
gently into my locker slot.
who saves his genuine, big smiles for me.
a boy with deeps eyes,
that can see through faces into depths.
who wears baseball hats and
lets me wear his too.
who gives me his t-shirt to change into
and not expect to get it back.
who knows my favorite color, song,
car, vegetable, perfume and
the color of my toothbrush.
a boy who will shake my dads hand
and look my mother in the eye.
who will call me by my full name--
first, middle and last.
a boy who will kiss me and
tell me im pretty.
a boy who will let me cry to him.
who will squeeze my hips just right.
who suprises me and compliments
my manicure and plays with my hair.
who knows when i have a math test
or when i fail one.
a boy who smells like
he just stepped out of the shower.
who wears cologne that i can subtly
smell when im leaning on his shoulder.
who tells me i have a nice laugh
and a smile that lights up the room
and simply be mine to hold.

Currently Playing Double Live By Garth Brooks To make you feel my love see related

  So yeah update on my life right now! lol Not much going on but yeah lets see yesterday I spent practically the entire day with Robby it was from like 2:30- like 11:45 but then i had to go home cuz i had to work the next day! But yeah i was supposed to be at his house at like 1 but yeah that didn't happen! ha ha ha i was on my way to his house and i was paiting my nails while i was doing it and well i spilled the nail polish on my pants so i had to go back home and change my pants and it was just one big mess! But anyways when i got to his house we left and went to is aunts house for a Memorial Day cookout! It was soooo much fun! i love his family to death! Especially his grandma she is the sweetest lady ever! ha ha ha and his mom OMG i love that lady she is so funny! and his step dad wow he cracks me up! I love his whole family! his aunt kept talking about Robby and I getting married and all this stuff! It was so funny! We finally told her that we aren't even boyfriend and girlfriend becuase she kept calling me robby's girlfriend! I like the sound of that but oh well that's his choice to wait an you know what I respect that! Robby is an amazing guy and is soo worth the wait!   But yeah I hung out with Robby's family most of the time! He played baseball and soccer and stuff with his cousins and i hung out and just talked with them all! Me and Demey (I am prolly not spelly her name right! ) but anyways we played candyland with their cousin casey! OMG i think that was the longest game of candy land i have ever played! ha ha ha it was great and that's ok Casey had fun so that's all that matters! lol But yeah idk but i love spending time with Robby! We have so much fun! Even when he makes me feel bad (playing around) about being an hour and a half late! He was playing around and he told me that his family was going to hate me cuz we were so late to the cookout and how they were there waiting for us to get there they weren't gunna eat till we got there and all this other stuff! So i felt sooo bad! lol but they just all laughed at me and was teasing me when they found out the reason why i was late! ha ha ha it's all good But yeah then afterwards we went back to his house and just layed down and watched Tv  till like 11:30. We watched that's so Raven on the disney channel! ha ha ha not his choice it was mine! i love that show! ha ha ha well guys i just called Robby more than likely he is sleeping lol cuz he had to get up way too early to go to work so yeah my poor baby is prolly sleeping! So yeah i'm just waiting to hopefully hear from him tonight! But yeah

*Robby i love you hun you are the greatest! I hope you had a good day at work and i can't wait till I talk to you next!!!!   

                                             Jessica  

I heard this song today in the car i've heard it beore but never really listend to the words of it until today and well these words made me think of robby like no other song has ever before!

 OMG i just found these they are smiley's of pickup lines! ha ha ha i have to put a few of them on here                  ha ha ha these are great!  anyone who actually uses these they are just dumb! ha ha ha